Yesterday I came to you with my breaking point. My lowest of lows. Nearly two years ago I almost quit. I almost gave up at all… because I simply didn’t think I could do it all. When something was succeeding, something else was failing… and I simply couldn’t see life any other way.
That is, Until HE showed up. He met me in my solitude, showed me His truth and restructured my life. Over the next 4 months Isaac and I stripped everything and rebuilt it all on His foundation.
Our work philosophy, our hours, our way of doing business and our way of doing life. It obviously wasn’t working our way… and it was time to make some big changes…
2 weeks after I wrote “what if” (yesterday’s excerpt) I wrote this…
The closer that I get to the realization of some of my dreams, the harder I want to grab a bathrobe, make a blanket fort in the closet and bury myself in berenstein bears books with my kidlets. Why is this so hard? Why do I strive for everything and push it away all at once? I’m so not this girl. But I fear I am. I sit here in the aforementioned robe, pajamas and blankets listening to backyardigans, knowing full well that in 24 hours there will be a clash of monstrous proportions. A small town girl meets city. An exchange of slippers to peep toe pumps. A divine appointment set forth by my amazing heavenly Father all the while his daughter is sick at the thought of taking the first step. How did I get here? Can I go back? If I fight or scream or hide will it all go away, or would that mean giving up the destiny that He has for me? I have to keep walking. Baby steps to the airport. Baby steps to a room full of strangers. I have this pressing guilt that I just can’t shake. I should be at home. I shouldn’t leave. My family needs me. But can I have both? Is it really, truly possible to follow my dreams as a photographer/marketer/teacher and still give my family everything they need? Or will I fail at both? It’s at times like these that my mind races to every thing that could possibly go wrong, or worse, every way that I can let my family down. It’s a continual cycle that I must break or I will be stuck in it forever. Miserably.
I have to win the battle in my head first. That’s the toughest part. It’s at these times that Proverbs 31 comes to mind. I’m so grateful that God made a point to write about things that He knew we could apply in our life and walk out victoriously. So thankful for His words.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:
Stop. Breath. Re-read. It IS possible. Her children arise and call her blessed. And her husband also. hmmmmmm. This woman loved her family. She got up early and cooked their food, she made their clothes, she was there for them. But she was also savvy, smart, strong and wise. She bought property and started a vineyard, she designed and sold clothing. Did you know she was a business woman??? Because I sure didn’t before God highlighted it to me! She makes me tired just thinking of it. But then….
She laughed. She was happy. She was balanced. Everything taken care of. Nothing neglected. Her family praised her.
Breath. This is the example HE gave you. Yes…. to do it all.. and to do it all, HIS way.
You have new hope. New focus. Just take the step. It IS possible.
Are you possibly there right now???
Do you know God is up to something with you and you just don’t know what?
Can you feel the stirring?
Are you like the boy in the film that refuses to embrace “reality” as what is real? Do you want to push past your current situation and tap into the Woman God designed you to be???
If this sounds like you don’t push it aside… ANSWER THE CALL. Come away with us.
This fall for 4 days we are putting on a Conference exclusively for Women Photographers.
Imagine. You are not alone… we are right there with you. We’ve been there, or are still there. We share you values, your passion and we want to get to know you for you. We want to help you reach that dream that is rising to the surface within you.
Consider this your official invitation…
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